IM BACK
Its Been a While. I been taking a bloggers rest. Since I went so hard last year I wanted to start the year off slow on here. Because once I start going in its going to be over hahaha.
Thank you guys for even coming to my lil fuk nigga blog.
Well I got some things to talk about.
I just finished this Beat yesterday. I sampled Kid Cudi's Day n Nite. Why?...hmm well I just wanted to show niggas how its done really. Or how I would approach it. Not just jump on that nigga shit. Gotta stay creative. Its the first shit ive worked on for months. Should be released soon.
Yo my mom keeps beefing at me. Saying i dont care about her. I'm a peace of shit. Is this life i chose or rather the life that chose me going to be my down fall or my up rising. I pay my bills, i dont do drugs, im respectful when im not disrespected. I mean what the hell. She thinks me and my lil sis show our father more respect. I'm like are you mad women. She doesn't know that i just want to make her proud of my choices. I just want to be able to pay off the mortgage for the house she raised us in. I just want to pay off all her debts she has from being a hard working woman with a million hustles. Maybe its the way she raised me. To be a loving boy. I was a mommas boy. So much that they made fun. Even she made fun. So at a certain age I distanced my self. Ran the street all late night and didn't care. Maybe thass why I don't say I love you enough. IDK....but she is on so much of a higher level than my pops cud ever be. And i tell her but she doesn't care. All she sees is im the worst most disrespectful son because i left a dish in the fucking sink. She hates me. why? is it the blurry father effect. When a child has a parent that is away they become blurry and its easier for you to not focus on them. While the other parent is right up in front of you so they get hit with all the drama cause you can See them perfectly.
Wateva
Life is good but im broke. I got cheese but im in debt and owe folk money. I dont like to owe. I have credit card debt, School loan, Tons of shit. Help me universe.
I been rehearsing for my Performances. Im trying to bring a different style to a emcee/ producer performance. I want to build tracks in front of people and then perform them. i want to incorporate my DJ skills. Because I can scratch and shit and thats a side people haven't seen yet. or should I just perform like wateva fuk it. It may be to much for people to get and understand right now.
IDK
tonight im at Websterhall with Theophilus London. This dude is a genius. His music inspires me alot and his friendship is a great one to have as a fellow brother and leader in this music shit. Come through.
Thank you guys for even coming to my lil fuk nigga blog.
Well I got some things to talk about.
I just finished this Beat yesterday. I sampled Kid Cudi's Day n Nite. Why?...hmm well I just wanted to show niggas how its done really. Or how I would approach it. Not just jump on that nigga shit. Gotta stay creative. Its the first shit ive worked on for months. Should be released soon.
Yo my mom keeps beefing at me. Saying i dont care about her. I'm a peace of shit. Is this life i chose or rather the life that chose me going to be my down fall or my up rising. I pay my bills, i dont do drugs, im respectful when im not disrespected. I mean what the hell. She thinks me and my lil sis show our father more respect. I'm like are you mad women. She doesn't know that i just want to make her proud of my choices. I just want to be able to pay off the mortgage for the house she raised us in. I just want to pay off all her debts she has from being a hard working woman with a million hustles. Maybe its the way she raised me. To be a loving boy. I was a mommas boy. So much that they made fun. Even she made fun. So at a certain age I distanced my self. Ran the street all late night and didn't care. Maybe thass why I don't say I love you enough. IDK....but she is on so much of a higher level than my pops cud ever be. And i tell her but she doesn't care. All she sees is im the worst most disrespectful son because i left a dish in the fucking sink. She hates me. why? is it the blurry father effect. When a child has a parent that is away they become blurry and its easier for you to not focus on them. While the other parent is right up in front of you so they get hit with all the drama cause you can See them perfectly.
Wateva
Life is good but im broke. I got cheese but im in debt and owe folk money. I dont like to owe. I have credit card debt, School loan, Tons of shit. Help me universe.
I been rehearsing for my Performances. Im trying to bring a different style to a emcee/ producer performance. I want to build tracks in front of people and then perform them. i want to incorporate my DJ skills. Because I can scratch and shit and thats a side people haven't seen yet. or should I just perform like wateva fuk it. It may be to much for people to get and understand right now.
IDK
tonight im at Websterhall with Theophilus London. This dude is a genius. His music inspires me alot and his friendship is a great one to have as a fellow brother and leader in this music shit. Come through.
Comments
the little things matter <3
xo
p.s. heard the show was good!
Let me pose a question, when would be the right time for people to get and understand it? A month from now or 10 years from now?
Don't start seeing things with your own "blurry" effect, when you do your work and your mind have no focus. Then your talent comes across "like wateva fuk it".
It is feelings and situations like this when you need to just drive all of that shit into your work and use it as a release.
That is how people will be able to understand it. Remember this is your Renaissance, your awakening. Don't sleep on it....
Having people understand never has a time frame at all. They either get it or they don't and to me, that is much better than everyone understanding what you are creating.
My mother is the same way, but I think it has to do with the fact that I am growing up, making my own choices, and moving out very soon. So, she does things like that in order to feel like she is not losing me as a daughter or a friend. Perhaps, your mother is doing the same thing. She sees how hard you work and shes scared that her baby is growing up (and you have). Its hard for parents sometimes, although its annoying as fuck for us. Take it day by day.
As far as money, it comes and it goes. These hard times will later make you appreciate all the dough that you will be getting in the next year or so.
Just keeping working hard and putting all that energy into your music. Money may not be present for any of us at the moment but at least we are alive and doing what we love. Most people go on their whole lives doing something that is convenient, but not something they appreciate or love.
We are lucky.
Uhuru,
King Texas
all the love I got,
ISA